On the road to the big 3.0 part 2.

I don’t know what is going on, I am very excited to reach the big 30 number.

My mind feels like I have reached that age when it is finally time to settle. Wisdom? Maybe. I was restless before because I wanted to do things before time ran { what a silly belief } I have travelled and accumulated short term contracts to feel free. I never saw myself signing a phone contract let alone saying yes to a man. At times, it started to worry me. I was scared that I would never be satisfied and that I would always need entertainment to feel alive. I worried I would get bored. I have realized that I am and always will be free. My life is mine and I will always be the one taking decisions. I am the master and I can makes changes. Always. You have the power and you must start with taking control of your mind and thoughts. Stop complaint & start acting !

Today there is a very different feeling going through my mind. Today for the first time I want to invest. For the first time, I don’t want to run away and book a flight but instead I want to see my savings account get bigger, I want to invest long term rather than buy quickfix. I want stability and I can’t imagine growing old without him. 

There is no where I would rather be than at this exact place at this exact moment of my life.

…Maybe that is called living in the present. 

It feels lovely, it feels like peace.

I am thankful and proud of my little self, I have plenty of faith in this life. It is beautiful.  


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